Tuesday, January 17, 2012

In a funk...

For the past two days, I've been in a bit of a funk. HATE when I feel like that. And for no apparent reason. I have so much to be thankful for, and I am - I have an uh-maze-ing husband, great kids (even though they make me want to pull my hair out much of the time!), a roof over my head, food to eat every day, and a good job. 

Still, I'm a girl. I guess maybe that's all there is to it. Just hormones. Nonetheless, what did I do about it yesterday when my kids were napping (I was home from work)? I took out my bible, printed a couple of handy references from pinterest for bible verses (see http://pinterest.com/pin/168040629815898989/ and http://pinterest.com/pin/168040629815898992/) and sat down to read. 

I would love to say that immediately I was a changed woman...renewed, fresh, perfect...nope. BUT, I was comforted, reassured, reminded, held. I read for about an hour, just flipping around from verse to verse...and I found one that stuck with me. So, I committed it to memory. (I promise, I am typing here from memory):

Isaiah 40:31 - but those who wait on the Lord will be renewed. They will mount on wings like eagles; the will run and not be weary; they will walk and not faint.

This is a good reminder to me - no matter how "tough" life gets (and let's be honest, I have it pretty good...I'm not facing the trials that many I know are!) all I have to is wait on the Lord. He is enough.



Thursday, January 5, 2012

I'm tired...

This time of year is SO draining...I am beyond blessed in many facets of my life, but between November and early February, I feel like life moves at lightning speed. Holidays are certainly a part of it, but work is more hectic than I even care to describe. This past Monday, I celebrated TEN years with the same company. C.R.A.Z.Y.

When I started there, I was a young single mom of one working in a call center - now, I'm married to the man of my dreams, have THREE kids and a (good but) demanding job!

I've decided that I'm not big on resolutions this year, probably because I didn't have time to think of one, or plan anything that may have popped into my head in passing. I have resolved to do several things better this year, though.

1. Spend more time in the Word. I've started by reading Proverbs - one proverb every day. My goal is to pick out at least one verse from each chapter, each day, that stands out to me. I'd like to memorize a verse from each chapter, but I'm not holding myself to that (my mom used to have to make up the silliest rhymes to get me to remember the stuff I'd studied in school. And no, I don't remember any of them now!). I am NOT what you'd call skilled at memorizing anything. I think I have so many things running through my head at any given time that I can't really remember any of it...lol...

Here are a few of the favorite verses I've picked out so far...


1:7 - The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction.


2: 11 - Discretion will preserve you; understanding will keep you


3: 3 - Let not mercy and truth forsake you; bind them around your neck; write them on the tablet of your heart


3: 5-6 - Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths.


3:12 - For whom the Lord loves He corrects, just as a father the son in whom he delights.


(ok, so I liked chapter 3 a lot!)


4: 18 - But the path of the just is like the shining sun, that shines ever brighter unto the perfect day.


2. Organize myself better. This one is hard for me. In my head, I have a million grandiose plans for having everything planned out and just sort of floating through my everyday life and having a "plan" to handle anything that comes along. In my head, it sounds and feels great. In reality, I often actually feel like a frazzled wife/mom/employee/manager/chef/friend/daughter/sister/etc/etc/etc. I think about everything AFTER the fact...or think of it, then get turned into a million different directions and never come back to the original thought. So, my plan (after these next few weeks, which are just beyond NUTS with work and home improvement happenings) is to spend at least a little time every weekend planning the next week and month. A little at a time. And, believe it or not, Pinterest (which could be considered a waste of time from some perspectives) has actually helped me come up with a few ideas to help organize my life.

3. Play with my kids more. I want to spend more time not doing anything but engaging with each one of my kids - individually and as a family. I had a taste of that over the week before Christmas, and I LOVED it. I'm hungry for more. 'Nuff said.

4. Have a date night with my husband at least once a month. This, unfortunately, is not a new one. I thought last year that this would be a piece of cake to stick to. But, it wasn't. Something came up for one reason or another more often than not and we didn't go out. So, this year, we will go out at least once a month - kid free!